I don't know if anyone reads this blog, facebook seems to be so much more effective, but for more private purposes, I will blog this instead of posting on facebook. Justin's cousin Lyndsey is pregnant with her second child. They lost their first last year at 20-22 weeks...a baby boy. This time she has a little girl, who they just found out has Holoprosencephaly. From what I can find on the internet, this basically means that a part of her brain is failing to form correctly and most of these cases lead to the baby's death before birth. There is a glimmer of hope for some babies though, that they have normal brain function, just some deformations of the face and head. Either way, it is very devastating to this couple and our family. There are no words to speak to them that can bring any sense of comfort when there are so many unknowns. The doctor offered for her to terminate now, but they have chosen to carry her until they are told she's not going to make it any longer. They need a miracle. The thought of losing a second child is so unfair...especially since we live in such a fallen world where so many have healthy children even out of disobedience. I know that sounds harsh, but it is a real thought in their minds, and mine for that matter.

I struggle with the concept that God can completely make her brain new and perfect. I struggle with the thought that he wants to heal every ailment. This requires me to trust...and what if he doesn't do a miracle. What if this sweet baby girl dies? What then, does this do to my faith? The truth is, it doesn't matter what I think about it. What matters is that we have a creator, who knew this baby girl before she was even formed. (Isaiah 44:2) he knows her...he started her little heartbeat, he keeps her alive in Lyndsey's belly, and he can touch her head, complete her brain, and move her eyes into perfect position. He can.

Now, she needs to be healed, and if she doesn't have any change, then mom and dad need to be healed...emotionally, spiritually, and physically. This isn't about God proving he can do it, or us proving we have enough faith to change God's mind. This is just a desperate plea to the God of the universe to step in and heal this baby.

Now to him who is able to do immeasureable more that all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout generations, forever and ever, Amen! Ephesians 3:20-21