No News Yet

It's Thursday and Justin still hasn't heard from the job yet. It seems like his interview was forever ago. It was just Tuesday. I am learning more and more how little patience I have. I know that all that is going to have to change very very quickly, because there isn't much room for impatience in motherhood. I have been trying to just relax and trust that God has the best plan for us. I find myself dreaming of what comfort we would have if he gets this job, all the things we could use it for to bless others, and how much more Justin would be able to do to our new house. Things he wouldn't be able to do with what he used to bring home. Then I have to remember...we are not the owners of our money...our jobs are a gift and a blessing. Really nothing we have is ours. If we all lived life with the mentallity that everything is on loan, we might take better care of possesions, be a little more careful with other people's hearts, and really cherish the time we have with the people we come in contact with each day. I'm sure that when Kash gets here, it's going to be really hard to remember that she isn't mine...that I have been entrusted to help her become the woman that God has created her to be. Maybe if I can remind myself that she is the Lord's, then maybe I won't be short with her, selfish with her, yell at her out of anger, or lose my patience quickly. I read all these blogs from other moms who only get to see their babies in a tiny bed in a hospital, or have to learn how to be nurses at home to help thier babies thrive, or the most unimaginable, held their baby as it returned to the Lord's arms. I'm sure those moms, have a better understanding of patience, and gentleness...and that their children are a miraculous gift from the Lord no matter how long they get to spend with them. I am just reminded of how selfish I am and how much I need a Savior, protector, healer, provider, counselor...daddy. So now I've come back down from my daydreams of more money and a "perfect" life. God knows the plans he has for us...to prosper us, not to harm us...plans of hope and a future. We will be ok whether or not this is the right job. We haven't missed a meal yet. Some in part to great friends who make great chicken (plug for Keli), but most of all because if God cares about the lillies, how much more does he care about Justin, Amy and baby Kash.

Interview

Justin has a job interview this morning at 8:20. This is the job that would allow us more financial freedom and definetely provide much more than we have now for the baby. Please pray that God would have favor on Justin today, and Richard who is interviewing him would only be able to choose Justin. One other man is interviewing today for the position. Thanks for your prayers.

Yeah, we changed the spelling of her name!

Think it's more girly!

Thankful Thursday

So I've never done one of these before, and I don't know who started it, but I'm gonna give it a shot. My day started out terribly, but as the day goes on I can't keep the tears from coming because of the peace and overwhelming joy that surrounds me today!

1. I'm thankful that no matter the circumstance, I am protected and provided for.

2. I'm thankful that I have a healthy baby girl growing in my belly and moving around everyday. I get to experience something that many women only dream of.

3. I'm thankful that we made it to the next paycheck without going in the red. My job is secure.

4. I'm thankful that Justin has had lots of time to prepare our new house.

5. I'm thankful that my parents want to buy a bed for Baby Kash. (the one we already chose)

6. I'm thankful we have a roof over our head.

7. I'm thankful that we have a multitude of friends who love us and invite us for dinner and lunch, and support us emotionally and through prayer.

8. I'm thankful for Keli and her ever encouraging comments on my blog and through text messages.

9. I'm thankful for the twenty dollar gift card that came with our baby registry stuff so we could pick out an outfit for Baby Kash just because we wanted to. (God sometimes blesses us with our silly desires)

10. I'm thankful for our church family that constantly calls with new possible job opportunities for Justin.

11. I'm thankful that no matter the circumstance, I am protected and provided for.

12. I 'm thankful that no matter the circumstance, I am protected and provided for.

A Few Things To Pray For

Her official name will be Aidyn Kash Lester, but we've decided to call her Kash. So please begin to pray now for her as we are doing...I'm already starting to have trouble sleeping at night, and I wake up for my ten hour day at work feeling exhausted. If anyone has any suggestions, they would be greatly appreciated. I already have a body pillow that I use to sleep. It's my hips that hurt the most at night. I don't know if it's the mattress or what.

Justin has three possible job opportunities coming his way this week. He should hear back from his old boss, has an interview with a furniture maker on Wednesday, and has filled out an application for a delivery job that a friend of ours is trying to get him. He should hear about that one this week also. That last one is the best pay we think, and it has great benefits. It's one that no matter the economy, will always have business. Please pray for the perfect one for our family. We would like for the last one to happen, because it would give us a significant extra amount each month. This would give us a little more freedom to do extra things for Baby Kash, and we would also be able to bless others like we have desired for a long time now. I would also possibly be able to stay home longer after Kash gets here. It is a great desire of mine to have more than six weeks. Please pray for my contentment, and God's will in a job for Justin. Thank you for your prayers.

IT'S A GIRL!!!

Well she was very busy in there yesterday, but we managed to get two views. She's a modest little girl (which we will continue to pray for), so we are glad we got the two shots we got. We couldn't even get a printed picture of the "between the legs" view cause she just kept closing them! The doctor said both times though that she saw three lines and no boy parts!!!

Job

We found out yesterday that Justin now has no job. The happenings are not important, just know that Justin was not treated fairly. He is very down, feels like it is his fault (which it is not) and is very burdened about the future. We have a baby coming in 4 months, a new house, and he needs a job very quickly. He has spoken with his previous employer the one he had before we went to Oregon, and he feels very strongly that he will get to go back, but it is not set in stone, so there is still that sense of urgency that he needs to find a job. I'm not really worried about the money, I think we have enough support from family. It's the fact that I can't do anything to make him feel better about the situation or about himself. I don't know how to encourage him enough or in a way that lifts him up. I can only love him, and tell him I trust him. I know he will get a job, even if it's working minimum wage for a while. I just want him to know his value doesn't lie in what job he has, or how much money he makes, but in his character and how he walks with the Lord. He is learning and growing so much, and disheartening things always seem to happen just when everything seems to be going in the right direction. I don't want him to lose faith. Please pray for provision, encouragement, faith, and rest. Thanks.